So, I recognise it's possible that I'll do a one-eighty turn and not believe a word of this at some point in the future, but I'm going to say it anyway: I'm feeling a bit uncomfortable about a couple of songs that several of my friends see as awesome lesbian icon flagships but I kind of see as ... like name-dropping, but the name is 'I might be a bit queer but not really LOL money.' Then they get money.
Obviously the first example is Rihanna's 'Te Amo.' I mean, it's a nice video, it's an alright song - but it isn't about queer affirmation: it's about getting into a misunderstanding with a queer woman (maybe leading her on?) and then being sad/gyrating about it. That isn't positivity to me. That's just kind of a mention and then a bit of objectifying/convenient examples. And it isn't balls-out saying 'LOOK AT ME KISSIN' LAYDEEZ' but there is a lot of laydee-on-laydee action (that lots of people I know like watching) but I just ... don't feel it.
Then there's Xtina's 'Not Myself Tonight.' I'm only just listening to Bionic now - I did mean to a long time ago because obv I am really excited about JD Samson and Sia and Peaches being on it, but then Lady GaGa happened and I suppose anyone reading this blog knows how that affected my every breath. ANYWAY, I actually find that song a bit boring - admittedly I have only listened to it a few times, but I'm finding it difficult to motivate myself to get to know it or really understanding why I should. And the whole 'I'm kissing all the boys and the girls' alongside 'I'm not myself tonight' feels insincere and appropriating. Like, this is fun and I'm doing it, but I'm not going to take any responsibility for it. And that just reminds me of Katy Perry. I mean, maybe this is just evidence of some normalisation of homosexuality and queerness - that it gets brought up, and maybe this is somewhere on the way to actually being represented without specifically and crucially heterosexist frames - but I don't really feel like I have time for it even if it is. I just feel like I've sat through this before.
On the plus side, though, Elastic Love is awesome.
Thursday 17 June 2010
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Wednesday 9 June 2010
Lady DroolDrool
A lot has happened since I last blogged. The main thing is that I am now irrevocably, unstoppably in LOVE with this woman:
I just ... she has got me like nobody. SORRY. But I literally can't listen to any other artist right now. My last.fm is abysmal. It is literally just her. AUGH. Love her. I actually had a dream last night where I was hanging out with the Scooby Gang (not the actual Scooby Gang- the Buffy Scoobies) and we were all preparing for the end of the world but nobody seemed very dedicated, and Buffy was heavily pregnant (and I kissed her), and then Buffy, Willow and I were watching the telly and it was showing Lady GaGa's new video (which I suppose was Alejandro) and suddenly GaGa leaned out of the screen (but not in a scary The Ring kind of way) and kissed me (KISSED. ME) and then she turned into Willow and I turned into Buffy and we were still kissing. It was like the ultimate fanfic experience of anyone ever, i.e. the best experience of my life.
In Other News (assuming there is any), I am trying to establish a daily working habit, which is WEIRD, but going okay. I have the biggest reading list ever for the summer, which kind of worries me with its general size, so I'm trying to read for about three hours a day. It's going pretty much to plan so far; I've not read much in the last two days, but yesterday I was doing Other Taxing Stuff and today I was travelling back to Bristol and celebrating the impending publication of my mother's first poetry collection (!!!!!!!!!!!!! how awesome slash if she wins our wikipedia race I'm going to be well fucked off) so I think it's okay to miss a bit. I'll get back on it tomorrow.
Another key part of my life recently, post-examhorror, has been Fable II. SO GOOD. I mean, I've finished the main quest now and am a bit weary of trying to raise a million gold in order to buy Fairfax Castle and destroy every single gargoyle, but for several days it was fricking RAD and I am very much looking forward to Fable III. Hooray I am making my first real foray into gaming!
I feel like I ought to add lots more to this, but there's nothing that comes to mind, really. I have already mentioned Lady GaGa; I am listening to Lady GaGa right now; earlier I was learning some Lady GaGa songs on the guitar; I recently posted an AWESOME Lady GaGa video to my Facebook feed. I think that's everything covered, really.
I just ... she has got me like nobody. SORRY. But I literally can't listen to any other artist right now. My last.fm is abysmal. It is literally just her. AUGH. Love her. I actually had a dream last night where I was hanging out with the Scooby Gang (not the actual Scooby Gang- the Buffy Scoobies) and we were all preparing for the end of the world but nobody seemed very dedicated, and Buffy was heavily pregnant (and I kissed her), and then Buffy, Willow and I were watching the telly and it was showing Lady GaGa's new video (which I suppose was Alejandro) and suddenly GaGa leaned out of the screen (but not in a scary The Ring kind of way) and kissed me (KISSED. ME) and then she turned into Willow and I turned into Buffy and we were still kissing. It was like the ultimate fanfic experience of anyone ever, i.e. the best experience of my life.
In Other News (assuming there is any), I am trying to establish a daily working habit, which is WEIRD, but going okay. I have the biggest reading list ever for the summer, which kind of worries me with its general size, so I'm trying to read for about three hours a day. It's going pretty much to plan so far; I've not read much in the last two days, but yesterday I was doing Other Taxing Stuff and today I was travelling back to Bristol and celebrating the impending publication of my mother's first poetry collection (!!!!!!!!!!!!! how awesome slash if she wins our wikipedia race I'm going to be well fucked off) so I think it's okay to miss a bit. I'll get back on it tomorrow.
Another key part of my life recently, post-examhorror, has been Fable II. SO GOOD. I mean, I've finished the main quest now and am a bit weary of trying to raise a million gold in order to buy Fairfax Castle and destroy every single gargoyle, but for several days it was fricking RAD and I am very much looking forward to Fable III. Hooray I am making my first real foray into gaming!
I feel like I ought to add lots more to this, but there's nothing that comes to mind, really. I have already mentioned Lady GaGa; I am listening to Lady GaGa right now; earlier I was learning some Lady GaGa songs on the guitar; I recently posted an AWESOME Lady GaGa video to my Facebook feed. I think that's everything covered, really.
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